For many years now I have hated my picture taken and have often hid behind the lens or other people in pictures. You would always hear "Am I in the picture?" or "Can you not upload that to Facebook?"at every family event or party. As silly as it is, it's beyond exhausting to say that every time and I just wish I could ignore the camera and just not be bothered with a simple picture. After taking a mini photoshoot of myself today (with the cat) it dawned on me why I am always so annoyed with getting my picture taken. I am always waiting for that perfect shot where I think "Oh! I look skinny in this, awesome!"... so after that thought hit me, I realized I will never be the same skinny girl I was in High School and that picture I'm always waiting for to appear on my camera after a shoot will not come. That was well over 10 years ago and things have simply changed. I am the same person, just in a different shell and there is just more to love. Haha!
I hear all the time online, offline, on the phone... you name it, that others hate their picture taken as well. They say the same things I say "I'm so fat"... "OMG you can see my double chin"... or just "Eww!". The fact is, I am who I am with bad eye sight, a double chin, Costco sized muffin top, big bust and a sometimes awkward smile. But when I really think of it all, there are far more things in life to stress over than to wonder if I look fat or not in the family Christmas photo. Yes, I will still carry the insecurities and trouble in self esteem, that won't go away over night... a month or even a year. So I will be starting 2013 with a new vision on how I want to see things. You can say that I am damn happy about the new years starting... and the fact that I don't have to say President Romney (oop's, did I just say that?).
By the way, I put a new lavender color on my hair! I used Manic Panic Mystic Heather!