One of the things you will never, ever, ever, ever see... is me take a picture or leave the house without doing my "face" or my hair. Ever. Until now! I decided to bite the bullet and do a mini photo shoot of me sans makeup and bed hair. Luckily, my hair doesn't look too bad in these pictures, but trust me, I look like a chicken. My hair is like 2" off my head towards the back top, it's quite funny. I normally throw a beanie on in the morning until I can manage a shower when Z is playing.
One of my biggest fears in 2011 was going to my 10 year school reunion. I didn't go for a couple reasons and the biggest one was I thought people wouldn't recognize me because of my weight. I kept thinking they would chat with one another and I would hear "wow, she got fat!'. Now, I don't regret not going but if I had felt the way I did now, I would have gone. Some of my goals this year is to attend more groupings and try to mingle more. I'm VERY shy and VERY socially awkward. I would say 98% of my friends reside online in different states and countries. The rest are on my Facebook. Bob, my husband, is the only one I really hang out with. So I'm hoping to get out there more this year. The reason I don't like to go visit friends and Bob's friends is clear, my weight was literally holding me back for the past years and it just got worse last year. I just didn't want to show my face and for them to think I was a whale.
Lately I have been feeling like a million bucks, my confidence has been lifting daily and I just feel so good about myself. Not sure how many pictures I have posted of myself last month, but today I noticed I didn't pick and complain about the pictures I took, like "oh, this one makes my chin look weird" or "this picture is my bad angle". I did filter through some of the really bad ones, but I was surprised at how much it didn't bother me as much.
So here's to more "me" this year on the blog, in your face and at your house!